It's almost like a test, like something I have to prove to myself. Can I go off by myself to places I've never been before, with languages I don't speak, and not only survive, but thrive? My mom said she felt the same way before she left home for the first time. Maybe that's how everyone feels.
Actually, I'm not so scared of being alone in the world; what I'm most anxious about are airports. Not flying or being on airplanes, but navigating the airports, getting to the correct gate (on time), and knowing where to go. Customs, baggage claims, passport control, transfers, check-ins....what is the correct order!? I have literally studied maps of the terminals/airports I land in (which would help if I was any good at reading maps), and I know that's a little pathetic/excessive but it sort of makes me feel better. Maybe it'll be like when you have to give a presentation in class and the anticipation is worse than the actual presenting part. Maybe.
After writing this, no one's going to believe me when I say I'm excited to travel. But I am. And I do want to go. And I know it's going to be okay.
I saw this guy for the last time on Sunday. His goodbye present to me? Ripping out a large section of his mane. Thanks Ransom. |
Cant wait to read your next blog!! Hopefull you were able to navigate the airports without any issues!! MISS YOU ALREADY!!!
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